Tonight Matt, Adam, Grant, and I went to go see "Be Kind Rewind" with Jack Black and Mos Def and it reminded me that I (heart) movies. I haven't really been watching many movies lately for reasons that I am not too sure of. I love to laugh and Andrew has been pointing out that when I find something really funny, I'll grab my chest with one or both hands, who knows what's going on there, maybe I think I'm going to have a heart-attack.
I don't know what this means for me and my future, I enjoy watching and making films but I am unsure of what I am going to do after school. I don't really want to go down to L.A. because it's just not my scene, but maybe I'll have an opportunity somewhere else. I am trying to not worry so much about the future but keep my options and eyes open. I know that God has his plan and I am just trying to be watchful. He knows that I want to travel, help people, and have an adventure; He will honor my heart, He always seems to.
Even when He doesn't answer the way that I want, it always comes out alright in the end anyway. I (heart) movies and am just fascinated with them. I found myself tonight analyzing camera movements and racking my brain on how they did that shot; it's just who I've become. There is a reason why God has put this enjoyment and passion in my heart and head; there is a place for me to do something along these lines somewhere out in that big wide world.
I have a bunch of movies that I have and haven't seen and some that I really want to see. I think I stopped watching movies for a couple reasons: I felt like they were consuming too much time from my life and I was just being dumb in general by letting my human nature get a hold of me. I am remembering the first and letting go of the second.
I wanted to look through my "little black book" to go through my list of things I wanted to change; I feel like I have strayed from it lately (thanks Becca Deitz). Thanks for reminding me of my list of change. As I was looking through my book I found this quote that I heard at church at the beginning of this semester (I've posted it before, sorry but it's applicable). "Perhaps one reason God delays His answers to our prayers is because He knows we need to be with Him far more than we need the things we ask of Him." - Ben Patterson. I feel like this is a wake up call because I have been struggling with devotions lately; I plan on working on that tonight!
Wrapping it up now. I plan on continuing to change into a better Al (people don't call me Al here though). Just remember that the new Alex 2.0 is not the same as 1.0. I have a firmer handshake and a brighter smile (Andrew knows what I'm talking about). Alright I better stop rambling. Peace.
P.S. Sorry I write so much....