Friday, December 26, 2008

if you're not tired of me, i really need your help

Not That Far - Slick Shoes

Looking back what can I say?
There’s been things done the wrong way.
I have tried.
Sometimes it’s hard.
All the time I’ve wasted didn’t get me far.
I try to live my life right, but it seems so hard.
Why have I not used your help?
Now I see your sacrifice for me.
Now I know your watching over me.
Now I see the greatness of your love.
Now I know I’ll never be alone.
I hope you’re not ashamed of me.
I haven’t been the best.
I hope I’m not the worst.
Help me live my life for you.
I can’t do it on my own.
I need your help.
If you’re not tired of me, I really need your help.
Now I see your sacrifice for me.
Now I know your watching over me.
Now I see the greatness of your love.
Now I know I’ll never be alone.
I’m tired of wasting all this time.
Help me live my life.
I can’t do it all alone.
Please stay by my side.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

i miss summer

i used to really enjoy winter, the sledding, snowboarding, snowball fights, making yellow snow, ice skating/hockey, but it is a little more limited in ol nampa, idaho. don't get me wrong, i love each one of those but there aren't many opportunities to capitalize on these. i think summer activities have trumped over winter activities: hiking, camping, biking, roller hockey, driving. only 177 days till the official start of summer.

life list

jotted some life goals down a bit ago and wanted to share:

-Bike across America for charity
-Work on a feature film
-Visit Iceland
-Visit Australia/New Zealand
-Visit Sweden
-Run with the bulls (Spain)
-Go to Olympics (watch hockey game)
-Live abroad
-Visit the Holy Lands
-See all Seven of the New Wonders of the World
(Great Wall, Petra, Christ the Redeemer, Machu Picchu, Chichen Itza, Roman Colosseum, Taj Mahal, Great Pyramid)
-See the Grand Canyon
-Ride in a helicopter
-Ride in a hot air balloon
-Scuba dive
-See the Stanley Cup
-Meet up with Bobby Hall (document it)

list not in any order what-so-ever. trust me i will do these and will gladly share my experiences with you. life is too short to live a mundane life. i am currently working on biking across america and iceland, but mainly biking. i have already been to two of the seven new wonders of the world

travel bug

as of recently i have had an itching to travel...again. so i am looking into backpacking iceland for a month. not exactly sure when but i hope to do it soon. i'm trying to cook up a way to take pictures or video and sell it. still thinking though. i will say that i think iceland might be the prettiest place on the planet, just from pics i've seen. it's a bold statement but i hope to verify that soon enough.


i setup a flickr account a couple weeks ago with some pics that i have taken. i hope to keep updating it so check it out; i'm gonna put a link on the side of the page too for easier access!

fresh snow

so it's been a bit since i last blogged but better late than never. it has been snowing a decent amount in ol namps so i went out one night and tried to capture my neighborhood best as possible. enjoy....

Sunday, December 7, 2008

festivas for the rest of us

so this saturday night my house got decorated for Christmas. two friends of mine, Lia and Amanda, came over to help me get the house in a festive mood. so we spent the evening listening to Sufjan Christmas (which if you don't have it, then you are missing out on some of the best Christmas music EVER). it is basically all decorated except i need to find a tree topper, so hopefully this week i will stop by thrift stores to try and find just the right one. enjoy the pics.

Friday, December 5, 2008


we just updated our company website and i am officially on there. check it out,
just click on my name and (poof) there i am.

Saturday, November 29, 2008


My Wish List

here is a list of movies, books, cds, and some other things to get me for Christmas/Birthday. gift cards would be nice too; places like GAP, AE, REI, let me know if you have any questions.

my new address is 204 Nectarine St. Nampa, ID 83686.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008


so i bought a bike trainer so i can bike in the leisure of my home. i'm very excited for it. i haven't been able to ride much because of how cold it is and how dark it is when i get home from work. now i hope to ride my bike while i watch movies and TV.

Monday, November 10, 2008

200th post...

a lot has happened since i started this blog and i can tell that i am growing up into an adult. there has been a lot going on and i am going to fill this 200th post with that stuff...

Ode to Matty:
it saddens me to say that my dog, Matty, is getting put to sleep. she is old and is not in the best state of life and i don't want her to suffer. i find it interesting how attached we get to our pets; i sort of thought she'd live forever in a sense. i am going to miss her lots and she was a great dog. she could sense when you had a rough day and would comfort you; she was the perfect dog to lounge with cause she would sleep on top of you and even under the covers. i don't know what Jerry is going to do now all alone but i know he'll miss her too.

1st Christmas:
this is the first Christmas where i won't be spending it with my dad in my 22 year old life; i will be spending it with Ian, Jamie, and the kids and maybe/hopefully Leo and Jenny so that will be nice. it is a weird feeling, but i knew this time would happen someday, but thought it would be later rather than sooner.

this past weekend i spent a long long time with my good friend the bathroom; i got food poisoning from Subway. i laid in our extremely small bathroom floor a whole night till morning in one of my most miserable states EVER. i am still queezy in the stomach but am at least not throwing up anymore. this is something i hope to not go through again; it was bad.

just the other day myself and 3 other friends went in together to purchase a Ukranian 16mm film camera so we could start shooting our own short films. we are very excited for this opportunity and surprised how cheap we got the camera. i have been really wanting to get into shooting and especially film, so here we go.

every time there is a major post i have to say something about my Mom and how influential she has been on my life. i would be lying to all of you if i said i was having an easy time, but as of lately she has been on my mind more and more. probably because it is because i am growing up and having to make difficult decisions for myself and i know that if she was here i would seek her counsel and advice first. i know i have my family and so many friends to be able to talk to but it is not the same. Mom and i were extremely close and i miss that relationship so much. i would call her for ideas of what to get people for Christmas; how to do certain household tasks, and we'd even talk about the Matty and Jerry like they were actual people. i remember Mom and Leo would do a puzzle every Christmas time and one year i took a piece to make sure i finished the puzzle cause i am not patient enough to do puzzles and Mom was looking for the piece high and low. there are certain people that i talk to or see bring up a memory of mom and one of them is a guy named Justin Wadsworth who was the youth intern for the Soldotna church and is now the RD for Culver here at NNU. I go over there to visit my friend Evan a lot and Justin and I talk about his summer up in Alaska and how Mom hiked Res Trail with all of us young kids. Mom was an amazing person and she is dearly missed...

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

dig it,

jim croce once said "if you dig it, do it. if you really dig it, do it twice."

lately i have been feeling the urge to get creative whether be photographically, videoly, or any other word where you can tag the -ly suffix to the end of it.

i have been struggling trying to think of something creative and yet simplistic. i don't have a lot of time on my hands or resources anymore.

as of late, i haven't had much hope for most creativeness. it seems like no one has an ounce of original ideas left. it is sad when great classics like Alfred Hitchcock's "The Birds", Sidney Lumet's "12 Angry Men", and Robert Wise's "The Day the Earth Stood Still" are all being remade. why can't we let things be and create something wholly original?

alas, i end up blowing the preverbal hot air around and still don't contribute to the latter. i will purge my deepest intellects, most creative parts in my being, and hopefully stumble upon something i can work with...

Monday, November 3, 2008

trace produce link

Here is a link to the Trace Produce piece I worked on. This is for my Pa.

two songs

two songs lately that have struck me:

David Bazan - Hallelujah

I heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do ya?
It goes like this, the fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew ya
She broke your crown and cut your hair
She tied you to her kitchen chair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

You say I took the name in vain
Well I don't even know the name
And if I did, well really, what's it to ya?
'cuz there's a blaze of light in every word
It does not matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah

I did my best, it wasn't much
I could not feel, so I tried to touch
I've told the truth, I did not come to fool ya
And even though it all went wrong
I'll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Sufjan Stevens - Amazing Grace

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now I'm found
Was blind but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

Through many dangers, toils, and snares
I have already come
'Tis grace that brought me safe thus far
And grace will lead me home

When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we first begun

Get This Party Started

i sent in my absentee ballot not too long ago and while i was filling it out i really felt like i was doing something very important. granted i didn't have a clue about the judges and what-not, but i hope others know and vote responsibly on those. i am not really gung ho about any candidate but i must say that whomever gets elected needs to enact some good changes. i tend to not get too political; i enjoy listening to others and hear what they have to say.

i will be following the election results closely tomorrow and will be making sure the party gets started!

*sorry it's mirrored

TPS Report

today i finally got paid for work this month; a little mixup at first but things got figured out quickly. basically they only paid me for one week of work instead of the whole month. now that i have money, i sat down tonight and figured out a monthly budget so i can manage my money in a more logical manner. i've never really had to live on a budget but i am going to give it a shot.

this year has really shaped me into more of an adult than almost any other time. i have to make sure i have food to stay alive, pay bills/rent, create a budget, figure out holiday plans, etc. these are tough decisions to make. i liked it better when i had to decided if i wanted to build a micro-machine city or a lego castle.

i am finding it harder to find time for my passions; i don't want to forget about things i want to do. i need to figure out a way that i can still bike, hike, camp, play guitar, shoot short videos, photograph things, and play roller hockey.

take it in strides.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Missed Opportunities

- Dressing up in my pumpkin suit and going to work on Halloween
- Carving pumpkins
- Having candy for trick-o-treaters (I had an opened bag from work)
- Saying something witty when it counts
- Having a quarter to give to a homeless man at Burger King

There have been some things this Halloween that I missed out on. There is always next year...for some things. I need to keep my eyes open for opportunities.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

No Longer the New Guy

Today I am no longer considered the "new guy" at work. We just hired a new flash designer who is a year younger than me. This past week has felt really good at work; my coworkers and I joke around, get lunch together, and shoot nerf guns at each other. I know how the new guy is feeling so I'm gonna try and help him out since I was just there.

I am now known as "Wonder Kid" or "the Closer". I finish up projects or I come through for the business when all has gone wrong.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Work Situation

This is the outside of DTX Creative. It is a two story/basement house converted into an office; that's how this section of Boise is like. The creative team works on the second floor.

These are our workstations. Katie, the intern, and myself are out here. There is another person but he only works when we have a lot of work and we might be hiring another person shortly. Then in another office is my project manager, John, and Brett; my boss, David, has his own office too.

This is my desk. I have three monitors for video editing which is neat. It is really bare but I hope to bring a couple things in to make it my own space.

*There I've finally put up some pics and yes it is always dark in there. One thing I don't like.

Trace Produce

so the project i was working on got finished and their is a link where you can go and watch it. so if you'd like to see what i worked on go here:

i edited the background video, shot and edited Doug (guy), shot or helped shoot all the background video too.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008


today i worked 13+ hours. a long day, but i didn't do much. my very first project, that i headed, was due today and i finished my stuff up on time but my boss took a little longer with his and then we had some computer issues when trying to render it. it is due tomorrow afternoon and when i left the office around 9p.m. it still had 16hrs to go. we'll see tomorrow.

*P.S. i will try and get pics seriously. i just moved to a new workstation and pieced two computers together to make mine better oh and i have 3 monitors now! most in the office. it shouldn't be too crazy this week so i will have my camera tomorrow so hopefully some pics.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

just somethin

i recently watched October Sky and i have to say that every time i watch it i become more inspired to dream big and not let obstacles get in my way. i tend to start or think up things and not complete them and i want to be able to look back and see that i set out to do something amazing and actually did it. i am inspired to tell great stories and to create my own; i challenge you to do the same.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

list of thoughts

(1) as much as we fill our lives with material things; they never fulfill the inner longings of our hearts.

(2) sometimes the things we don't want to hear are the things we need to hear.

(3) we all struggle, day/night; we are no better than anyone.

(4) acting on God's nudges are the way to go; don't ignore them.

(5) Christmas music is sometimes the music you need to hear.

(6) we all need people to talk to; tell our happinesses, fears, worries, goals, and frustrations to. lend an ear.

(7) love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, and mind. i tend to forget that.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

DTX Creative

So this last week I started a new job! I am working full time at DTX Creative in downtown Boise. I am an entry-level designer/video production person. DTX Creative is a web design/video production company; they specialize in creating logos and high end interactive websites for businesses as well as commercials. I enjoy it a lot more than I expected; the people are very nice and I am never bored because every day has something new for me to work on or learn. I am thankful for all of the prayers and help with my job search; so thank you. I am going to try and snap some pics of work this next week.

This is my workstation; it is messy cause we haven't fully moved everyone to their new workstations.

Saturday, September 13, 2008


God has blessed me in a way that I don't feel like I've ever experienced before. He is my Provider and always looks after me. He has instilled in me a passion and a desire to grow in Him and to love others. I am His vessel! I am so happy to hear from Him and to feel His goodness.

"If I sing at the top of my lungs, it won't say a thing if I haven't loved." - Watashi Wa

thank you for Your still small voice.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

It's Something for Now

This week I started working at FOX channel 12 as a part-time production crew member. I shoot the evening news; man the main camera (CAM 2) and I will be trained to use the teleprompter, graphics generator, and audio sound board. This is alright experience for the time that we work.

Basically I get to work and play UNO/watch TV for an hour until we head down to the studio to go through our camera scripts and mark our shots; then the show usually starts then right when the news is over we cover the cameras, shut off the lights, and head home.

I am still looking for other work, either to add another job or replace it with something more full-time.

P.S. I haven't really felt up to blogging lately so bear with me. I've been riding my bike A LOT for some exercise since gym memberships are so stinking expensive for me right now. That's all for now.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Jesus Plays in a Jam Band

Alright so here is the much anticipated pics of 204 Nectarine St, my new home. It is just 2 streets down from where our old house is but it is just myself and my friend Andrew. It gets the job done and it is reasonable. It is a 2 bedroom, 1 bath, unfinished basement, and a detached 2 car garage with a fenced in backyard.

view looking back at our house in our backyard.

our 2 car garage that we don't use.

our living room when you walk in.

walking out the door of our kitchen into the basement