a lot has happened since i started this blog and i can tell that i am growing up into an adult. there has been a lot going on and i am going to fill this 200th post with that stuff...
Ode to Matty:
it saddens me to say that my dog, Matty, is getting put to sleep. she is old and is not in the best state of life and i don't want her to suffer. i find it interesting how attached we get to our pets; i sort of thought she'd live forever in a sense. i am going to miss her lots and she was a great dog. she could sense when you had a rough day and would comfort you; she was the perfect dog to lounge with cause she would sleep on top of you and even under the covers. i don't know what Jerry is going to do now all alone but i know he'll miss her too.
this is the first Christmas where i won't be spending it with my dad in my 22 year old life; i will be spending it with Ian, Jamie, and the kids and maybe/hopefully Leo and Jenny so that will be nice. it is a weird feeling, but i knew this time would happen someday, but thought it would be later rather than sooner.
this past weekend i spent a long long time with my good friend the bathroom; i got food poisoning from Subway. i laid in our extremely small bathroom floor a whole night till morning in one of my most miserable states EVER. i am still queezy in the stomach but am at least not throwing up anymore. this is something i hope to not go through again; it was bad.
just the other day myself and 3 other friends went in together to purchase a Ukranian 16mm film camera so we could start shooting our own short films. we are very excited for this opportunity and surprised how cheap we got the camera. i have been really wanting to get into shooting and especially film, so here we go.
every time there is a major post i have to say something about my Mom and how influential she has been on my life. i would be lying to all of you if i said i was having an easy time, but as of lately she has been on my mind more and more. probably because it is because i am growing up and having to make difficult decisions for myself and i know that if she was here i would seek her counsel and advice first. i know i have my family and so many friends to be able to talk to but it is not the same. Mom and i were extremely close and i miss that relationship so much. i would call her for ideas of what to get people for Christmas; how to do certain household tasks, and we'd even talk about the Matty and Jerry like they were actual people. i remember Mom and Leo would do a puzzle every Christmas time and one year i took a piece to make sure i finished the puzzle cause i am not patient enough to do puzzles and Mom was looking for the piece high and low. there are certain people that i talk to or see bring up a memory of mom and one of them is a guy named Justin Wadsworth who was the youth intern for the Soldotna church and is now the RD for Culver here at NNU. I go over there to visit my friend Evan a lot and Justin and I talk about his summer up in Alaska and how Mom hiked Res Trail with all of us young kids. Mom was an amazing person and she is dearly missed...