president's day...some great and not so great men will be "honored" today and that's all fine and dandy to me. today i will be honoring someone who has been more influential and inspiring than all forty-four presidents combined. it never gets old talking about how wonderful a person my mother was; i think that says something about her and her character. of course we all have our faults, but mom was all about overcoming those faults and helping others overcome theirs. i have learned so many life lessons from her, i am sad to say i won't be learning any more from her. i am glad to say though that i will be learning from my family members and friends.
i went out hiking on sunday and this thought came to mind: mom's death was the best and worst thing to happen to me in my life as of right now. it made me grow up faster and become the man that i am today which is good/bad. i am also closer to my dad than i was before; i never really felt like i had a strong relationship with my dad, just an average one, but now i am happy to say that we are much closer now mainly because we were forced to be.
onward. there are two pictures that i plan on reflecting on for today: one when i was in middle school and the other when i started college. both transitional periods in my life and my mom was right there with me. i knew that i could call her up and ask her if i was doing my laundry correctly or come home and unload on her about a crappy day. she's the person i would go to for everything. i miss this, i hope to have this someday with my spouse (if that ever happens). i know i have friends and family but sorry it's just not the same, being apart isn't the same as being together all the time. i want to remember these two times and reflect on the happiness that is brought with these pictures. a good president is nice to have, but it will never ever come close to how important a mom is on a kids life and even a grown-ups life.
"i miss you dearly mom. i ask God to tell you hello and i love you every time i pray, which needs to be more often. i hope to make it to heaven to see you. one day at a time i suppose." - me