walking into my house tonight right around midnight, something just clicked. i am an adult. i am self-sufficient, i have no one asking me where i'm going or when i'll be back, i am not asking people for money or paying people back, i get my own food, i pay my own bills, i control my schedule, no one telling me to not buy something. it is a very weird thinking; something i've always realized, but never really clicked until tonight.
i also realized tonight, that i am a child. i am still holding onto youthful ways. i'm not saying that it is a good or bad thing; i will say that it's both. it's funny how and when certain things become realized to us. ironic.