here is a list of movies, books, cds, and some other things to get me for Christmas/Birthday. gift cards would be nice too; places like GAP, AE, REI, Nashbar.com. let me know if you have any questions.
my new address is 204 Nectarine St. Nampa, ID 83686.
so i bought a bike trainer so i can bike in the leisure of my home. i'm very excited for it. i haven't been able to ride much because of how cold it is and how dark it is when i get home from work. now i hope to ride my bike while i watch movies and TV.
a lot has happened since i started this blog and i can tell that i am growing up into an adult. there has been a lot going on and i am going to fill this 200th post with that stuff...
Ode to Matty: it saddens me to say that my dog, Matty, is getting put to sleep. she is old and is not in the best state of life and i don't want her to suffer. i find it interesting how attached we get to our pets; i sort of thought she'd live forever in a sense. i am going to miss her lots and she was a great dog. she could sense when you had a rough day and would comfort you; she was the perfect dog to lounge with cause she would sleep on top of you and even under the covers. i don't know what Jerry is going to do now all alone but i know he'll miss her too.
1st Christmas: this is the first Christmas where i won't be spending it with my dad in my 22 year old life; i will be spending it with Ian, Jamie, and the kids and maybe/hopefully Leo and Jenny so that will be nice. it is a weird feeling, but i knew this time would happen someday, but thought it would be later rather than sooner.
Subway: this past weekend i spent a long long time with my good friend the bathroom; i got food poisoning from Subway. i laid in our extremely small bathroom floor a whole night till morning in one of my most miserable states EVER. i am still queezy in the stomach but am at least not throwing up anymore. this is something i hope to not go through again; it was bad.
Krasnogorsk-3: just the other day myself and 3 other friends went in together to purchase a Ukranian 16mm film camera so we could start shooting our own short films. we are very excited for this opportunity and surprised how cheap we got the camera. i have been really wanting to get into shooting and especially film, so here we go.
Mom: every time there is a major post i have to say something about my Mom and how influential she has been on my life. i would be lying to all of you if i said i was having an easy time, but as of lately she has been on my mind more and more. probably because it is because i am growing up and having to make difficult decisions for myself and i know that if she was here i would seek her counsel and advice first. i know i have my family and so many friends to be able to talk to but it is not the same. Mom and i were extremely close and i miss that relationship so much. i would call her for ideas of what to get people for Christmas; how to do certain household tasks, and we'd even talk about the Matty and Jerry like they were actual people. i remember Mom and Leo would do a puzzle every Christmas time and one year i took a piece to make sure i finished the puzzle cause i am not patient enough to do puzzles and Mom was looking for the piece high and low. there are certain people that i talk to or see bring up a memory of mom and one of them is a guy named Justin Wadsworth who was the youth intern for the Soldotna church and is now the RD for Culver here at NNU. I go over there to visit my friend Evan a lot and Justin and I talk about his summer up in Alaska and how Mom hiked Res Trail with all of us young kids. Mom was an amazing person and she is dearly missed...
jim croce once said "if you dig it, do it. if you really dig it, do it twice."
lately i have been feeling the urge to get creative whether be photographically, videoly, or any other word where you can tag the -ly suffix to the end of it.
i have been struggling trying to think of something creative and yet simplistic. i don't have a lot of time on my hands or resources anymore.
as of late, i haven't had much hope for most creativeness. it seems like no one has an ounce of original ideas left. it is sad when great classics like Alfred Hitchcock's "The Birds", Sidney Lumet's "12 Angry Men", and Robert Wise's "The Day the Earth Stood Still" are all being remade. why can't we let things be and create something wholly original?
alas, i end up blowing the preverbal hot air around and still don't contribute to the latter. i will purge my deepest intellects, most creative parts in my being, and hopefully stumble upon something i can work with...
I heard there was a secret chord That David played, and it pleased the Lord But you don't really care for music, do ya? It goes like this, the fourth, the fifth The minor fall, the major lift The baffled king composing Hallelujah Hallelujah
Your faith was strong but you needed proof You saw her bathing on the roof Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew ya She broke your crown and cut your hair She tied you to her kitchen chair And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah
You say I took the name in vain Well I don't even know the name And if I did, well really, what's it to ya? 'cuz there's a blaze of light in every word It does not matter which you heard The holy or the broken Hallelujah Hallelujah
I did my best, it wasn't much I could not feel, so I tried to touch I've told the truth, I did not come to fool ya And even though it all went wrong I'll stand before the Lord of Song With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah
Sufjan Stevens - Amazing Grace
Amazing grace, how sweet the sound That saved a wretch like me I once was lost but now I'm found Was blind but now I see
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear And grace my fears relieved How precious did that grace appear The hour I first believed
Through many dangers, toils, and snares I have already come 'Tis grace that brought me safe thus far And grace will lead me home
When we've been there ten thousand years Bright shining as the sun We've no less days to sing God's praise Than when we first begun
i sent in my absentee ballot not too long ago and while i was filling it out i really felt like i was doing something very important. granted i didn't have a clue about the judges and what-not, but i hope others know and vote responsibly on those. i am not really gung ho about any candidate but i must say that whomever gets elected needs to enact some good changes. i tend to not get too political; i enjoy listening to others and hear what they have to say.
i will be following the election results closely tomorrow and will be making sure the party gets started!
today i finally got paid for work this month; a little mixup at first but things got figured out quickly. basically they only paid me for one week of work instead of the whole month. now that i have money, i sat down tonight and figured out a monthly budget so i can manage my money in a more logical manner. i've never really had to live on a budget but i am going to give it a shot.
this year has really shaped me into more of an adult than almost any other time. i have to make sure i have food to stay alive, pay bills/rent, create a budget, figure out holiday plans, etc. these are tough decisions to make. i liked it better when i had to decided if i wanted to build a micro-machine city or a lego castle.
i am finding it harder to find time for my passions; i don't want to forget about things i want to do. i need to figure out a way that i can still bike, hike, camp, play guitar, shoot short videos, photograph things, and play roller hockey.
- Dressing up in my pumpkin suit and going to work on Halloween - Carving pumpkins - Having candy for trick-o-treaters (I had an opened bag from work) - Saying something witty when it counts - Having a quarter to give to a homeless man at Burger King
There have been some things this Halloween that I missed out on. There is always next year...for some things. I need to keep my eyes open for opportunities.
